Saturday, November 28, 2020

Hennessy the Shepherdess Chapter 3


                Hennessy chewed on her pencil eraser as she stared at her statistics homework. Statistics was definitely a subject best approached with a pencil. There was enough math involved that Hennessy found that she had to really concentrate to figure out the solutions to the problems. She glanced up as she heard the door to her room open. Her roommate, Veronica, walked in with a towel wrapped around her wet hair.

                “Hey V,” she greeted. “I didn’t realize you still here. I thought you had left to meet Toby already?”

                “Nope,” Veronica responded, popping the p. “He needed to study for a Calculus exam, so I decided to sleep in a little bit. Although apparently not as much as you did. You were out like a log when I left for the showers. Late night, eh?”

Hennessy smiled at the teasing lilt of Veronica’s voice. “Yeah, it was kind of late. I went to a movie with Adam and some of his friends, then we went for some frozen yogurt.”

                “So you finally went on a date?”

                “I don’t know if you can call it going on a date when you are the only girl with a bunch of guys.”

                “So polyandry, then?”

                Hennessy rolled her eyes. “No, I think they just see me as one of the guys. They are just fun to hang out with. I’ve always enjoyed hanging out with guys more than girls. Usually, but not always, there is a lot less drama.”

                “True that,” Veronica responded emphatically. “I like having my girlfriends, but there is something to be said about the company of guys, especially when there is no romance involved, but if you think that Adam sees you as one of the guys, you are more hopeless than I thought. I’ve seen how he looks at you and you look at him. You guys like each other more than just friends. Someday you guys will accept it. In the meantime, watching the two of you dance around each other is highly entertaining.”

                Veronica bent over and flipped her curly black hair over her face as she dried the unruly curls with the towel, effectively not allowing Hennessy the opportunity to respond to her assessment of the situation. Hennessy had a feeling that it was intentional. She heaved a sigh as she assessed her situation with Adam. It was true. She was starting to fall for Adam, even as she tried to fight it. She kept telling herself that she didn’t need romance in her life right now. She was a college freshman with an undecided major. She didn’t have the time needed to invest herself in a relationship. But she did have to admit that she enjoyed the time that she spent with Adam. He just made life fun, but not just that, he encouraged her to be the best version of herself.

                If Hennessy was honest with herself, she was a little bit afraid of starting a relationship with someone. She had never been in a relationship before. She had gone on a few dates to school dances during high school, but that was just expected when you grew up in a small town. Most of the time, she had done the asking, and the one time she was asked to a dance, the junior prom, she still was trying to determine whether it was a pity date or if the guy actually liked her. She was leaning towards pity date. So the idea of someone actually liking her enough to commit to a relationship was scary. Her teenage years had been a series of unrequited crushes, so she was unsure how to determine if her feelings for Adam were reciprocated, or is she was right when she said he thought of her as one of the guys.

She grimaced as she realized that she had bit off the eraser tip. She hurriedly spit it out and threw it in her garbage can under her desk. She was starting to think she would need to make a Walmart run to buy some of those eraser tips that elementary students used. Not having an eraser was kind of defeating the point of using a pencil. Maybe Adam would consent to driving her to the nearest Walmart. Her parents had discouraged her buying a car for her first year of college since everything she needed was pretty much within walking distance. They felt it was an added expense and she needed to focus on her education rather than work so that she could support a car payment or car maintenance. Hennessy smiled ruefully as she realized that her thoughts had traveled to Adam again.

“Now what are you grinning about?”

Veronica was standing behind her, scrunching her wet curls.

“Just how much I love statistics. Fun stuff like that.”

“Liar,” Veronica retorted. “You’re thinking about Adam aren’t you?”

“Fine, you caught me. I was thinking about how it is nice that he can be my chauffeur, especially since I seem to not be able to keep my pencil erasers intact.”

“You do realize they sell those at the bookstore, right? I think you are just thinking up reasons to hang out with him.”

“What are your plans for today? You surely aren’t going to spend the whole day trying to unravel the mysteries of Statistics are you?”

“No, I’m also going to attempt finding the key to unlocking chemistry, world civilization, and human development. Plus, I have a research paper that I need to find some references to support my position.”

“You lead a sad life. It’s Saturday. Get out. Don’t stay here all day. Your prince is waiting patiently to take you to Walmart to help satiate your appetite for pencil erasers. Call him.”

“He said he is busy today. I think he has an intermural soccer game or something.”

“So why aren’t you there cheering him on?”

“I have homework to do.”

“You’re hopeless. Well I think these curls are the best they are going to be, so I am off to see if Toby is done with Calculus. If not, I will still do my best to convince him that I am so much more interesting than differentials. I will see you later tonight.”

Veronica grabbed her jacket and purse and was off, leaving Hennessy alone in their room to ponder the merits of homework versus having fun.

Saturday, September 12, 2020

Hennesy the Shepherdess Chapter 2

            Hennessy doodled in the margins of her notebook as she tried, and failed, to focus on the droning voice of her history professor as attempted to lead a discussion about Mesopotamian culture. Despite growing up on a farm and being used to waking up early to feed the sheep before jazz band in the morning, Hennessy wished she would have never registered for an 8 am class. She resolved that when she signed up for classes next semester, the earliest she would schedule a class was 10 am.

College 8 am was not equivalent to high school 8 am, never mind the fact that jazz band had been at 7 am. The last two weeks had been a blur. She had agreed to join Writer’s Anonymous, and in addition to her classes and the resultant workload, she had been ruminating on an idea for a short story, and the first chapter was finally written and ready to post to the site. Adam had been right, setting time aside for some creativity had helped center her, even if it was only a few minutes each day. It was liberating to work on something that was not required, but rather was something she chose to do. 

She and Adam had also started meeting in the library to study in between classes. Hennessy had discovered that she was much more productive studying in there, rather than her dorm room with its tempting promise of non-homework related fun with her floor mates. Hennessy credited these study sessions and the focused work she was able to accomplish with creating the time she could use to write before bed each night. While studying together did not necessarily allow Hennessy and Adam a lot of chatting time, their class schedules aligned fairly well, so they were to converse on their way to class. Hennessy had discovered that while Adam did seem to focus on fun, he also had a firm desire to help those around him. He volunteered one afternoon a week at an elementary school helping struggling students discover a love for reading.

Hennessy admired that he was able to find this balance between fun, serving others, school, and writing. She found it a struggle to balance school, self-care, and writing. She often joked that he would give Mother Teresa a run for her money, to which he responded with a sardonic grin that he could never survive a vow of chastity, which was typically met by an eye roll from Hennessy.

Hennessy was pulled from her thoughts by the sound of a bell. Her class was now over, and she had a few hours before her chemistry class. The autumn sun warmed her face as she walked through the doors of the Reneke Building. The leaves on the trees were starting to turn, and she was greeted by shades of red, orange, and yellow. It felt like a shame to waste an hour of the autumn warmth, especially with the threat of the winter chill looming closer and closer, so she found a picnic table under the shade of an oak tree and settled in.

She knew she should work on finishing the Epic of Gilgamesh. Her essay on the poem was due in two days, but she was not feeling like reading about the adventures of the ancient king. She had set a soft deadline to post the first chapter of her short story by tonight, and it was almost ready, but she wanted to reread it before doing so. Although Adam had reassured her numerous times that Writers Anonymous was a group of friends, not a group of critics, Hennessy still did not want to embarrass herself, or more especially, Adam, by submitting shoddy work. Yes, she was a bit of a perfectionist, but it had suited her so far in life, so she did not see the need to change.

Hennessy pulled out a pink folder with a picture of a leopard on it from her bag, and started to read the printed version of her first short story, red pen at the ready.

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Lizzie Mucks a Barn

 Elizabeth Clara Maynard, otherwise known as Lizzie, was not pleased. She was currently grounded. For something she did not do. Okay maybe she did do it, but that was beside the point. Her twin sister Maggie, otherwise known as Margaret Eleanor, was just as much at fault as Lizzie was, yet once again, somehow Lizzie received all of the blame. And now she was responsible for mucking out the sheep barn. By herself. So what if she was the mastermind behind the plan that led to the goats escaping the field and eating their next door neighbor, Mrs. Bouffant’s prized peonies. Anyone could have accidently left the gate open in the goat field. Lizzie had been absorbed in pretending she was Brigitta von Trapp and had been signing “Do-Re-Mi” at the top of her lungs and frolicking in the meadow.

Lizzie jabbed the pitchfork into dirty straw, then grunted as she lifted it into the wheelbarrow. At least the day wasn’t too hot, so she was able to work at a fairly decent pace. However, it still felt like she would be here forever. There were so many other things the ten-year-old would much rather be doing. Like watching a musical, practicing piano, even doing the dishes, but here she was in a stinky barn slaving away while her sister was probably in their room reading a book.

A group of lambs ambled up to Lizzie to see what she was doing. Lizzie smiled, and reached out to pet the closest lamb, Jumper. Jumper was one of her show lambs she planned to take to the county fair this year, and she had been taking him on walks regularly. Ashley, her thirteen year old sister, had warned her that it was not a good idea to name a show lamb, as it would make selling that show lamb at the end of summer so much harder, but Lizzie could not stand to not name him, especially as he followed her everywhere, which may have had something to do with the fact that Lizzie had been bribing him with grain to be her friend since he was old enough to eat solid foods.

This was Lizzie and Maggie’s first year to join their siblings in the show ring. Sheep shows had been a family tradition for as long as Lizzie could remember, and her parents relayed their experience in the show ring on occasion at family dinner. Her parents had even met each other one summer at a sheep show when they were twelve and the rest was history. Lizzie thought that this was so romantic and hoped that she met someone that could be her best friend when she started going to shows. Although, as she was ten, she did acknowledge that she had a while before she had to worry about getting married.

Raising show lambs had been harder than Lizzie thought it would be. Although she had kind of helped her older siblings in the previous years, this year she was solely responsible for ensuring that Jumper and Reginald (her other show lamb) received an adequate amount of exercise. Haltering a lamb, and then attempting to teach the stubborn ovine to follow you while you were pulling it behind you had been difficult, but she had now reached the point where Jumper and Reginald trusted her, and she was actually able to walk them together, instead of having to take them on separate walks. She was still attempting to overcome the embarrassment that came from walking a sheep like a horse or a dog; however, at least she didn’t have to take a herd of pigs for a walk like her friend McKenzie who would be showing pigs at the county fair. Now that had to be embarrassing. Plus, pigs smelled so much worse than sheep.

“Hey Lizzie-bug! Enjoying your time mucking out the barn by yourself? “

Lizzie glared at her older brother, Luke. He was of course attached to his girlfriend Veronica. They never went anywhere separately it seemed. Personally, Lizzie couldn’t see what Veronica thought was so cool about Luke. He had dark red hair, freckles, and his width had not caught up with his growth spurt over the past year, and in Lizzie’s opinion he was kind of tall and scrawny despite the fact that he ate twice as much as a normal person should. But Veronica was attached to his hand, smiling moronically like he was the hottest guy in the world as she playfully slapped Luke’s arm.

“Luke,” she protested, “don’t be such a jerk to Lizzie. I think I remember a time that you also left the gate open and the goats raided Mrs. Abernathy’s flower garden when you were fourteen and having to muck out the barn by yourself.”

Lizzie rolled her eyes, Veronica and Luke had been practically inseparably since the second grade when Veronica moved to Fairfield Village. The googly eyes were a new development, but if Lizzie remembered right it had actually been Veronica that had left the gate open, but a short and scrawny Luke had taken the fall, as he was desperately trying to impress Veronica while trying to simultaneously act like he wasn’t interested in her. Teenagers were so weird. And yes, Lizzie’s memories might be a little cloudy as she was seven at the time, but she did remember their oldest brother Daniel rolling his eyes at Luke’s attempts to be the knight in shining armor. Veronica had snuck over and helped Luke clean the barn. After that, she and Luke had come to an agreement that neither should take the fall for the other and that they would face their punishments together.

Veronica detached herself from Luke’s hand and grabbed a pitchfork leaning against the fence and started scooping dirty straw into the wheelbarrow between her and Lizzie. Luke rolled his eyes and likewise grabbed a pitchfork; however he was not quiet for long.

“It’s a good thing you are my favorite youngest sister.”

Lizzie rolled her eyes as she shoveled a scoop of straw and manure in the wheelbarrow. She was not amused by Luke reminding her yet again of her entrance into the world mere minutes after Maggie.

“I’m your only youngest sister,” Lizzie retorted. “Maybe if you said that I was your favorite younger sister, I might take more stock in your words.”

“Yeah, but you don’t tell me that I’m your favorite older brother.”                                                                                                       

“Maybe that is because Daniel is actually nice to me, or at least he is not around to bug me much since he graduated high school and went to college. And Sam is just cool. He downloads his music to my mp3 player. And he has much better taste in music than you.”

“You wound me, bug.”

“He likes musicals. You like country music. Musicals are just so much funner to dance to.”

“Someday, you will be old enough to go country swing dancing and you will understand the amazingness that is Carrie Underwood, Rascal Flatts, and Shania Twain.”

“Ah-hem!” Veronica interjected, as she threw a pitchfork full of muck in the wheelbarrow, “As I recall I am not the one that lives here and these are not my sheep, so why am I doing all of the work? Let’s get done, so that Lizzie can get back to singing her musicals and we can get ready to go dancing. And just for the record, Celtic music is the best.”

Lizzie and Luke looked at each other, guiltily at each other and quickly got back to work. Veronica was making good time mucking out the barn, even with a brief interlude to do an Irish jig with her pitchfork to punctuate her love for Celtic music.


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Eliza had just finished reading the short story, when she noticed a shadow. Looking up, she smiled as she realized it was Adam.

“Is this bench taken?” he asked as he sat opposite her.

“You didn’t want to waste this beautiful morning for the library either?” Hennessy queried.

“Nope, and I am glad I’m glad I found you,” he answered.

“Why? I mean I am pretty cool, but we usually don’t meet this early. I didn’t think your first class was until eleven.”

“It’s not, but I was just wondering how the writing was going, and if you wanted to meet today to eat lunch together.”

Hennessy smiled up at Adam. She had never noticed before, but he had the bluest eyes and the longest eye lashes. Hennessy suddenly felt slightly embarrassed that she had been staring at Adam’s eyes so intently and hurried to look away.

“That sounds like a great idea,” she said with a smile looking back at him, trying not to make the moment as awkward for Adam as it was for her at that moment. What was wrong with her? Adam was her study partner. They were friends. Why did she feel butterflies all of the sudden in her stomach at the thought of eating lunch with him in a crowded cafeteria full of college students?

“As for the first part of your question, I have my first short story to submit. Well, it is not really a short story, as it is only 1300 words, but it is my first foray into the world I want to create. I think I’m going to focus on little snippets at first, rather than a full story. I think that will be a bit more sustainable with how busy I am. During my Wikipedia rabbit hole last now, I think the genre would be either a sketch story or vignette. How is your writing going?”

Hennessy felt relieved to return to a safe subject rather than one that forced her to evaluate her reaction to lunch with Adam. Introspection was not her favorite past time.

“It’s going. I actually have an idea that has been ruminating for years, and it seems like I am finally able to get my words down on paper, or at least computer screen,” Adam smiled revealing a dimple, which did not help Hennessy’s struggle to avoid introspection.

“Great! It always is a great feeling when you are able to get the words out. I’m really glad that you talked me into this writing gig with you. It is providing a lot of stress relief. I just really hope that others will find my ideas worth reading, so that they can give me feedback and I can improve.”

“That is the focus of the group. Every time you post a story, you are giving the link for 5 other entries to read and review. That way you get feedback, and you get to read other people’s work and learn from critically reading another’s work to provide feedback. Some of the reviewers can be brutal in their honesty, but really that is what is needed when you are a writer. It is better to experience that in the draft phases rather than later when you are trying to sell your ideas. And yes, I know you don’t necessarily want to be a professional writer, but it can be a nice side gig. And you can submit your stories for contests and potentially win a little bit of extra cash here and there. Or at least that is what my friend Rick says. He actually created the forum, and he is using his freelance writer income to help pay for college and eventually PA school.”

Hennessy bit her bottom lip as she thought of the implications of what Adam just said. Yes, reading and critiquing five other stories or chapters would take time, but she also knew that there had to be some give and take. She couldn’t expect to receive feedback if she was unable to return the favor. Plus, it would give her a break from her course work. Although she loved to learn, being told what to learn was not as entertaining. She appreciated the breadth of knowledge that she was gaining, but sometimes she did not really understand how stoichiometry or ancient Sumerians would help her on her career path helping others, even if she did not know exactly how what the path would end up looking like.

“That actually sounds like a good idea. The shared editing part, not necessarily the freelance writer gig; I don’t think I am ready to commit to that yet. I would rather have some feedback, rather than just silence,” Hennessy responded.

“Well, I am always here if you need a reader too. However, right now, I need to give myself a crash course on mitosis for my biology class. However, with this awesome weather, I think I am going to stay out here with you and try to focus on the dry words of cell reproduction, rather than the beauty that surrounds me,” he said with a cheeky grin as he grabbed his Bio 100 textbook.


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Saturday, July 25, 2020

Hennessy the Shepherdess- Chapter 1

Chapter 1

                “So I enjoyed your essay. You can tell that your sheep were really a passion for you.”

                The voice jarred Hennessy from her thoughts as she stared at the chrysanthemum bed. The many colored hues reminded her of her mother’s flower beds at home. With a little jump, Hennessy glanced up at the brown haired boy standing next to her, Adam, one of the members of her critique group in English class. He had a small, nervous smile on his face and was fiddling with the straps of his black backpack.

                “Thanks!” Hennessy responded. “I really enjoyed your essay too. You described the impact of soccer in such a way that I feel a little bit let down about my own soccer career.”

                “I thought you were pretty cool before. This cements it,” Adam teased with a widening smile on his face.

                “If I knew all I needed to do to succeed in college is play little league soccer, why did I do everything else? I could have saved myself so much stress, plus been in such good shape,” Hennessy sighed dramatically, but quickly giggled and smiled up at Adam from her perch on the cement wall bordering the garden.

                “Why do I get the feeling I am being mocked?” Adam deadpanned, then smiled as he continued, “So you were quite the Renaissance woman. You grew up on a farm, you won a sheep show, played soccer… Is there anything that you can’t do?”

                “Well, I was not so successful at debate club. It was kind of a bust. I received straight 5’s from all of the judges at the region impromptu contest. That is not a good score. Drama wasn’t much better. I had a small part in the play as a reporter, but that year the drama director pretty much let everyone who tried out have a part. I grew up in a small town, so I pretty much had the opportunity to try everything. Pretty much the only thing I didn’t do was sing or play an instrument that actually required something besides my hands and arms to play.”

                At his puzzled look, she continued, “I played the piano and various keyboard instruments during my band career. All of my friends played either woodwinds or brass instruments. I preferred to hit things. I was quite the awesome cymbal player in marching band. It definitely helped my popularity.”

                Adam chuckled, “I went to a huge high school, so I mostly just played soccer and sang in the choir. It was kind of hard to stand out, I was just one of the many and we had to stick with one or two things. I envy your ability to try so many things.”

                Hennessy smiled. “I never really thought of it that way, but most of that is behind me now. It’s kind of weird. All of the things that made me, well me, are gone now. Now I just have school, and I’m not entirely sure what I want to major in. I had thought I had always wanted to be a doctor, but the thought of that much school does not sound appealing. What are your plans, Adam?”

                Adam chuckled lightly and smiled ruefully at Hennessy, “My dad wants me to follow in his footsteps as an accountant, but the thought of that just does not appeal to me. Right now I’m not sure what I want to do. I’m one of those infamous undecided majors. So far I have thought of Creative Writing, Exercise Science, Communications, or even Marketing, but in some ways I think it might also be fun to be a teacher. I had so many teachers that helped to shape me, and I would love to be able to be that person in someone else’s life. My goal for this first year is to get my generals out of the way and take some time for introspection and decide what I want to be when I grow up.”

                Hennessy giggled, “That is quite a wide range of interests. I’m pretty sure that I want to do something in healthcare, I just haven’t decided what,  but I guess we are eighteen. We have a bit of time to decide.”

                “So you don’t want to do anything with farming?” Adam asked

                “No,” Hennessy responded. “Farming has always been a hobby for our family. It is not really our livelihood. My dad is an occupational therapist and my mom is a Massage Therapist and Yoga Instructor. Pretty much everyone in my family has gone into some type of healthcare-related field.”

                “How many siblings do you have?”

                “Three. I’m the baby of the family, so it feels like I have to live up to my siblings’ achievements, and there is nothing really left to achieve because they have already done it. I was the pleasant surprise caboose in our family. My parents did not expect to have any more children as there youngest was ten when they discovered that my mom was pregnant, but I think over the last 18 years, they have decided that I haven’t ruined their 40s and  50s too much,” Hennessy rolled her eyes. “How about you? What is your family like?”

                “Well my dad is an accountant, like I said, and my mom is an engineer who designs bridges. I get my artistic side from her. I just use a lot less math to express my artistry,” Adam joked. “I’m actually an only child. My parents married in their 30s, and it took them a while to get pregnant with me, so unlike you, I don’t have to worry about any siblings and their shadows. But on the other hand, all of my parents’ expectations rest squarely on me, and they both think that numbers are my future. Even though I like math, it is not my passion. I want to use this year to discover what my passion was.

                “However, the real reason I stopped to talk to you was to ask if you wanted to join an online group that some of my friends from home created.”

                “An online group?” Hennessy interjected, one eyebrow cocked and a smirk on her face.

                Flustered, Adam continued, “Yeah, a group of friends from home who like writing decided to create a website for people to get together and share their stories with each other. You know, to get feedback and stuff.”

                Adam glanced at Hennessy. She still looked skeptical, but he thought she would be a good addition to their group. She would have a much different perspective than his friends, plus there was the little fact that he wanted to get to know her better, and this could help him with that objective. And she seemed like she needed a friend, so he nervously continued.

                “They just mailed me some of the business cards they created to help advertise, so here is one. You are a really good writer, and I think you need to share that talent with others. Just think about it, okay.”

                Hennessy took the offered business card and looked at it.

 WritersAnonymous.com

A group for aspiring authors and those who want to help them succeed.

               
“Just think about it,” Adam urged again. “I’ve got to run to my next class, but I will see you tomorrow in English.

                Hennessy smiled at his retreating back. She could tell that the request had made him nervous, and she wondered why. He was just asking her to join an online writers’ group. It was not a huge deal. She pondered his invitation. It would be kind of fun, and maybe that could be her niche in college. She had browsed the booths at the club recruitment event during the first week of school, and while some of the clubs did look interesting, she had not committed to anything yet. Like she told Adam, she was feeling lost, and was unsure what shape her new role in life was going to take. Maybe this online group could give her the creative outlet she needed as a break from the rigors of college.

                She had not realized how hard college was going to be. While she was a good student, college was so different from high school. It felt like all she did was study, and even then, things did not always make sense. Her mother had urged her to find balance in college. She had reiterated that while grades were important, Hennessy also needed to discover ways to relax and re-center herself. She just was not entirely sure how to do so.

                She had a day before she would see Adam, so she would ponder whether this writing group was the answer to her balance problems. Right now, she need to decipher the mysteries of stoichiometry for her Chemistry class.                                                   

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Saturday, July 18, 2020

Hennessy the Shepherdess- Preface

Preface

Hennessy stared at her computer screen and bit her lip as she pondered the first assignment of her freshman English class. A personal essay.  She had written many such papers through Middle School and High School, but now that she was in college she knew the stakes were higher. She had breezed through English at her small high school, receiving praise from her teachers on her writing abilities, but she no longer felt special. How could she write something that stood out among all of the amazing students around her?

Sighing, she moved from chewing on her lip to chewing on a strand of her curly auburn hair. Then, realizing what she was doing, she sighed again and stared out of the floor to ceiling windows of the campus library. Students were walking by looking oh so confident. Hennessy wished she could have just a little bit of their confidence. College was hard, and her first few weeks had reinforced her feelings of home sickness. She wished she was home, with Talia her border collie licking her face, surrounded by what she now termed as the welcoming sounds of sheep bleating. She laughed at that thought. She would never have guessed she would miss the sound of sheep persistently complaining about their hunger or other woes. She thought after eighteen years she would be relieved to have peace and quiet. Not to mention being free of the stench of sheep manure. But as she gazed out the window, she realized she even missed the muck and mud of early spring and the melting snow. A tear slid slowly down her cheek. She missed home.

Sniffing she willed herself to stop crying. She was a college freshman with a deadline. She needed to have a rough draft of her paper written in time for her English class tomorrow morning at nine. It was now five p.m. She was not a procrastinator, but she had been experiencing severe writer’s block and could not come up with a topic to save her life. It was now crunch time, and she needed to think and decide on a topic. Blinking back her tears, she remembered the words of her seventh grade teacher, Mr. Kim, “Write what you know. Write what you love. Write what you are passionate about and what makes you unique.”         

Well, in this metropolitan university campus, growing up on a farm definitely made you unique. Farmers were few and far in between. “Okay,” Hennessy thought to herself, “I’ll write about being a farm girl. That will help me stand out, but which experience do I write about?”

Taking a deep breath, Hennessy started to type.

 

 

The Real Joy

                There was an air of tenseness in the show ring. The judge had narrowed the finalists to six. I held my lamb with a vise-like grip; she was prone to jump, and I did not want to lose her at this critical point. I stared intensely at the judge, too nervous to smile and barely managing to keep a look of total and complete terror off my face. I knew my lamb was good, one of the best I had ever raised, but I did not know if the judge would agree. Finally he stood back, and the livestock committee handed him a belt buckle and a pink and purple rosette. This was the moment of truth. I think I managed a weak smile in a last ditch effort to impress the grandfatherly man. He started to walk towards me; I was getting excited. Then my mind started to psych me out. What if he was going to shake Abigail’s or Tiffany’s hand, or perhaps Kristy’s?  This was perhaps the most nerve-wracking event in my fifteen-year-old life. The judge smiled and shook my hand. I burst out in a blinding smile, and the crowd roared. One of the biggest goals in my life had just been achieved: my lamb was named Grand Champion Lamb of the County Fair.

                I bought my first sheep, Cleo, when I was ten. I didn’t know it then, but my life was about to change in unexpected ways, for I have gained more than pretty ribbons and flashy belt buckles from my livestock experience.

                Beeeep, beeeep, beeeep. Across my bedroom my alarm clock beckoned. Groggily, I forced myself out of bed. I looked at my alarm and groaned.  It was a Saturday, and it was 5:30 in the morning.  I swore my dad was a slave driver. I could just imagine my friends waking up at this time of day. They were so lucky. Clumsily, I staggered to our wash room and pulled on my mom’s boots over my pajama bottoms and grabbed a coat and flashlight. Throwing the garage door open, I was attacked by several small knives of frigid air. The only light outside was our yard light and my weak flashlight. The brisk wind cut through my silky pajamas, and I knew that wearing them was not the wisest choice I had ever made. I did not care because I was going to jump back in bed when I finished, so I refused to get dressed. Once at the barn, I peered in the stall to see if any baby lambs had been born during the night. Seeing nothing (literally, because I did not have my contacts in), I scurried back to my warm bed; hoping that there really were not any problems.

Many a time, however, I went up to the barn on those freezing cold mornings and found a lamb that was chilled and on the verge of death. I would have to carry the slimy, spindly legged lamb to my grandma’s house to let it spend the day lounging in a cardboard box in front of the wood burning stove, never knowing if when I returned home from school whether or not my efforts would be rewarded.   

Even when sheep are not helpless anymore they tend to hurt themselves. One morning as I was putting my show lambs on our horse walker to exercise them, I noticed that my ewe lamb had torn her hoof and was squirting blood. I had to pour pungent smelling iodine on the wound to harden the hoof and bandage it to protect it from further injury. After I finished my hands were stained a sickly shade of brown and also smelled of that noxious iodine odor I detested. 

Animals, especially sheep, always become ill, bloat, and are harassed by carnivorous animals, in addition to the accidents such as tearing a hoof occurring. Some experiences are harder to deal with than others. One that stands out in my mind occurred four years ago. The day before Christmas my dad and I went to vaccinate a ewe that had succumbed to pneumonia. Raised by me from birth, Squirt was one of my first and pet ewes. Very weak, she managed to stagger over to my dad to receive her shot. The shot was given and immediately she went berserk. The shots of LA 200 normally sting the sheep, but this was a particularly adverse reaction. Weakly she sunk to her knees while I cradled her head. As I knelt in the frozen muck, tears started to stream down my face. She made her final death struggle and was gone. Squirt died in my arms. 

This experience affected me, but what affected me more was witnessing the destruction wrought by two vicious dogs, a German Shepard and a Black Lab that killed more than half of my ewe herd. That harrowing scene of carnage is one I cannot recall without shuddering. Seeing the sheep I loved and cared about murdered sent me into a state of mind-numbing frenzy that permanently left a part of me deadened. The sight of their corpses floating in the pond, only appearing as dirty cotton balls, shot through me like a bullet. I remember holding 15, another ewe I had raised, whose ears had been chewed off by the dogs and were oozing bright red blood. Denying the seriousness of the situation, and hoping she was going to survive, I winced as I heard my cousin end her suffering with a shotgun. Then I witnessed Blackie, one of my favorites, struggle to gain her strength back and stand, but then I discovered a hole in her hip so deep I could not see the end. As I cried into my pillow that night after she had been put out of her misery, I reflected on how precious life is and how quickly it can be snatched away.

As I watch my vulnerable lambs progress from into an adult sheep, I realize that my experience has not been about winning or even about the sheep themselves. Because of all the things that were required of me during my sheep exhibiting years, I have discovered that it is easier to be responsible rather than to complain and procrastinate. Irresponsibility around sheep has dire consequences. In many cases one tiny mistake can lead to a sheep sickening, or even dying. Because of one such mess-up one of my best ewes died after bloating on alfalfa hay when I left the gate to the haystack unlocked. Caring for my sheep throughout the course of their lives has helped me gain a spirit of love and compassion. Rescuing a chilled and weak lamb from certain death, or nursing a ewe back to health has taught me that giving of my self is more rewarding than concentrating solely on my own needs and wants. 

                While everyone may not be suited for, or even want a life on a farm, I am glad I had the chance to be raised on one. Despite all of the hard work, I am grateful for the lessons that I have experienced. Perhaps I could have learned these lessons elsewhere, but this avenue was possibly the best for me because it was something I grew to love and enjoy. For me the most rewarding part of sheep exhibiting was not having my lamb win the Grand Champion of the show, but knowing that through my efforts I have been shaped into a better person. This is an experience I want to share with others, especially my future family. I believe that as I share my love of sheep, they too will grow in unexpected ways.  

                Hennessy stretched her sore fingers and glanced around her. It was now dark and the tables near the window were much emptier than previously. Hearing her stomach growl, she glanced at her laptop and noticed that the time was now 9 pm. She had just spent the last four hours typing, but she was done. Navigating to the class discussion board, she posted her essay to her groups’ revision thread, noting that her three classmates had already posted their essays. She would need to read their essays and provide feedback, but for now she needed to find dinner and get home to her dorm room.

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Saturday, July 11, 2020

I Love You


Katrina smiled as she inhaled the scent of apple blossoms surrounding her. The sun warmed boards below her felt comforting on her back as she gazed at the wooden walls around her and reminisced on all of the memories she had made in this treehouse. Hours spent reading and discovering the worlds of Harry, Anne, Laura, and countless others. Of writing her own stories in honor of her literary heroes. Of tears shed over friends lost and unrequited loves of adolescence. There were both good and painful memories made in this old treehouse.
Today brought to mind both types of memories, and Katrina felt the urge to put her thoughts on paper so that she could help organize her thoughts. Pulling herself up into a sitting position, she looked down at the spiral notebook beside her. Sighing she picked it up and started to write.
Dear Henry, your love for me has meant more than you can ever realize. You were the first person to smile at me in our Kindergarten class all those years ago. Even though girls are supposed to have cooties, you told all of your guy friends that they would let me play four square with you. Otherwise, you would punch them in the nose. Thankfully, they accepted me, so that you didn’t have to do so. ‘
As we progressed through elementary school, we did make other friends, but you were always the constant in my life. When Lisa told me she couldn’t be my friend because I wore the same dress as her in second grade, you offered to go punch her in the nose too, if she wasn’t a girl since you didn’t hit girls. Instead, you sprinkled salt on her ice cream when she was distracted at the birthday party I wasn’t invited to because I was no longer her friends. When she got mad, you told her that I was sad, and I was your best friend, and no one messes with your best friend. Rather than hating you, she acknowledge that it was mean of her to not invite me to her birthday, and we have been friends since.
In fifth grade, when I didn’t want to deal with the drama of pre-teen girls, although I caused plenty of it myself, you let me play basketball with your friends and helped me perfect my free throw shot. Playing with you guys helped me develop a love of basketball that still continues and has been a major part of my life.
In seventh grade, when I though Ricky was the boy that I was going to marry, even though as a ninth grader he had no idea who I even was, you were there to listen to me. You were so patient with me, even when I was an irrational girl. You helped me cope with the heartbreak when I realized that he already had a girlfriend. You let me cry on your shoulder and I probably ruined it with my green eyeshadow that I thought was so cool at the time.
You were by my side on our first day of high school, as we embarked on the unknown. You helped me find my classes and you helped me with my geometry homework since I had no idea why I should care about the behavior of lines, points, and planes. I still don’t understand why I should care about theorems and postulates. A triangle is a triangle and a line is a line, but you helped me pass the class so that I was able to progress on to higher level math that made more sense. Don’t ask why tan and sine and cosine made more sense to me than geometry, but they did.
When I thought I was going to miss out on our Junior Prom, you asked me, although I knew that there were so many other girls that you could have asked. I think that it was that night that I realized that you liked me more than just a friend. Everyone commented on how happy that you looked with me on your arm. I didn’t know how I felt about that because you were Henry. You were my best friend. Best friends don’t fall in love with each other. At least in the movies it seemed like that make friendships awkward. However, I couldn’t miss how handsome you looked in your tux, and I felt like a princess in your arms as we danced the night away.
Graduation came, and it dawned on me that we were going to college in different parts of the state. I started to freak out a little bit. You had always been by my side, and I was not sure how I would cope with you 2 hours away. Yes, we could call, text, instant message, and whatever, but I knew that our relationship would never be the same. It is hard to keep up when there is that much distance between. However, you held me tight as you said goodbye to me and reassured me that I would be fine at college and that you were only a phone call away.
I made many friends in college, and I even started dating someone, but you were the constant in my life. You would listen to me for hours on end as I told you about how hard it was to be so far from home. You gave me advice, and helped me come to terms with the person I was growing into. You helped me gain the confidence that I needed to re-apply to the nursing program after I was unsuccessful the first time. You listened to me when I cried about the first patient that I lost as a nursing student. I could hear the smile in  your voice when I told you about watching a baby be born.
I never realized how one sided our relationship truly was. You gave so much to me, and I gave you so little in return. I wish I would have taken the time to ask you how you were doing through all of those times you listened to my problems. I never knew about the demons that you faced in your life. I didn’t realize how much you needed someone to listen to your problems. You always looked so happy that I didn’t think that anything could have been wrong in your life. I missed all of the warning signs that were so obvious, especially now that I am looking back in hindsight. I wish I would have never taken you for granted.
Now that you are gone, there is a giant hole in my heart. I cannot say that I understand why you did what you did. Why you thought that the only solution to your problems in life was death. I can never understand why. I only know that the best way that I can honor you is to watch out for those around me, and to be a friend to those who need one. I can listen more than I talk. You would not want me to wallow in grief and guilt, so although I feel each emotion so strongly, I will not let them dominate my response. I will remember the good times and look forward to the day when I can be with you again.
I wish I could have told you how much I love you, and how much you have meant to me, but I guess this letter will just have to suffice. I truly do love you Henry, and I wish I would have realized that sooner, so I could have told you in person. Save a place for me in heaven. I love you.

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Wednesday, April 8, 2020

Dear Diary


In the form of diary/ journal entries, write about someone who's up late at night because they're having trouble sleeping.
 4/8/2020
Dear Diary,
I wish I was asleep right now, but I can’t get my mind to stop running. There is so much to be worried about right now in the world, and I feel that I just can’t handle it. We are in quarantine right now due to a crazy virus, so I’ve been having to do school at home. It’s hard. This was supposed to be my last year of high school and I was supposed to have fun with my friends and enjoy life. We were supposed to go to Branson, Missouri for the National Jazz Band competition, but that has been cancelled. I can’t even be with my jazz band friends because we can’t leave the house. I miss them. I get why we need to be in our house and not around a bunch of people because this virus is bad, but I’m having a hard time adjusting to the fact that my senior year is not going to be like I had planned. We don’t even know if we will have a graduation ceremony.
I guess that is one plus of this whole situation. I was supposed to be one of the speakers at graduation, but now I don’t have to be. I was kind of nervous about it, but still, it would have been something to brag about to my friends once I got to college. Speaking of college, who knows what will happen there. Maybe they will just decide that everything is online after this, and we will just live in our houses and have no human contact except with our immediate family. I don’t know if I could handle living with my parents forever. I was looking forward to living in the dorms and having freedom. Now who knows what will happen.
I know I should just probably find a relaxation app and try to fall asleep, but I think it might also be helpful to just get my thoughts out of my head an onto paper. What did people do before apps that helped them fall asleep? Maybe I should google that later. My mom would probably just tell me that back in her day you counted sheep or something like that. Why would you count sheep, why wouldn’t you count cats or lemurs? Okay lemurs would be kind of random, but sheep don’t really strike me as animals that would help you sleep. They are kind of noisy.
I wonder if I should learn how to be more self-sufficient and learn how to live off of the land. I guess if the world is going to end, I should probably be more than just some kid that likes to play the piano and read. I don’t think either of those would really help me survive the zombie apocalypse. What if this virus really does turn us all into a bunch of zombies? Are zombies real? Could this virus morph into something that could turn us into zombies? I should probably not think about zombies. That is not going to help me sleep.
I really do wish I could sleep. I guess I really don’t have anything really pressing that I have to do in the morning, so I guess it is not a really big deal, but what if sleep deprivation makes you more susceptible to this virus, and I get it, then I turn into a zombie. Eating brains would be weird.  I really need to stop thinking/writing about zombies.
I have an English paper that I need to finish writing tomorrow. Maybe I should get up and work on that. Writing about the plot devices of Wuthering Heights and how they relate to the world today is sure to make me sleepy and maybe it will help me get my mind off of zombies. So maybe I should go do that. But do I really want to do homework? Maybe I could just read or keep writing?
I think I will keep writing. My mom showed me a post on Facebook that we should write in a journal and record our feelings during this time because we are making history. I really don’t want to make history. I just want to enjoy my last year of freedom before I go off to be an adult. However, it is kind of crazy that a disease could grind the entire world to a standstill. My dad is always looking at his phone and grumbling about the status of his 401K. I don’t really understand what he is talking about, but I know it has something to with money.
Since both of my parents are working from home and my siblings and I have school, it seems like someone is always using the computers for work, so I’m not able to play Minecraft. I guess in the overall scheme of things that is really not a big deal, but I do miss just being able to sit at the computer, smash blocks, and listen to audiobooks. The libraries are even closed. I guess that is another reason to be grateful for technology. We can still borrow digital books, so I don’t have to worry about not being able to read, but it does kind of stink to have to read to my baby sister from my phone instead of a book. Yeah, we have books here, but she doesn’t want to listen to us read those, so to find variety, I have to look for picture books that are compatible with my phone.
I’m not really super worried about this whole virus thing, but I do miss my grandparents. We haven’t been about to see them for a month because they are at an increased risk of having complications from this virus, so mom and dad say that we can’t visit either set of them, even though they are only 15 minutes away.
I think I am finally starting to feel a little bit more tired, so I think I am going to try to fall asleep. Thank you for listening to me. Hopefully getting all of this out will help me be able to sleep. One can only hope.


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